Santa Clara Meditation Self Reflection – What are good ways to get rid of obsession?
Some people are obsessed about certain things that other people really don’t care about that much.
Is it worth it for me to spend meaningful and valuable time on things that may be harmful to my body and mind, to my family and to my happiness?
I used to struggle with an obsessive, perfectionist mind. I selected a reference point that I had made and, if I deviated a little from that reference point, I couldn’t accept it. This made me anxious. Because I was a perfectionist, I spent a lot of time in deep thought in order to find the perfect answers. Because of that, I would lose momentum.
Of course, it is good to make an appropriate plan before working, and to do things step by step, but in my case, it did not work. I was too compulsive and too much of a perfectionist to think a lot beyond the steps. I felt weighed down and burdened.
Whenever I was doing something, I had to make my own frame and then always had to follow it. As a result, I didn’t have flexibility and I couldn’t collaborate well with other people. I suffered from being trapped in my own obsessions, frameworks, and perfectionism. It was as if I was trapped and struggling in my own hell. I was just struggling day by day without knowing how to get out of the pain, even though no one had ever told me to live that way.
Still, I didn’t blame myself for my compulsions, my frameworks and my perfectionism. I blamed the world instead, and was resentful that the world and other people didn’t understand me.
Then my family introduced me to meditation and the meditation helped me reflect within my heart and on my life.
Looking back, I realized that all those obsessive, framed, and perfectionist minds were illusions that I had been creating for myself all my life. I was so grateful that I could abandon them and be free from them.
In the past, I always believed that I had to live with a mind that pursued frameworks and perfectionism in an obsessive, compulsive way.
After I let go of that mind through meditation, I realized that I could do better without it.
I could then think with a much wider perspective and I was free from my limited thinking. I was able to find good ideas and solutions faster, and I could collaborate with others much better because my mind was more flexible.
Above all I am grateful that my heart is so relaxed and free now. It feels like I have gotten out of the stuffy prison I had made for myself.
If there is anyone like me who is struggling with an obsessive, perfectionist mind, I would like to introduce this video about meditation that may be helpful for you. Thank you!
