Santa Clara Meditation Enlightenment – I want to go to the end. I want to go back to America and do it again.
Sook Ja Lee
At first I did not believe, and I came with many doubts. While my youngest brother stayed here for nine months, he started meditation. I thought there must be something. I am very thankful, very grateful to everyone and my brother. It has been a time to really reflect on myself. I have come to realize that I have been living in a state of illusion.
Resentment, anger, distrust. Looking back, all of life itself has been a dense mass of negativity. This road seems to be the way I should go. I want to find my true heart after throwing and throwing away, and emptying all the false pictures that I have lived with. I realized I was universe, but I was only able to get little glimpses, little taste here and there. So I think I need to finish the process. Until now, I have lived religiously saying I will discard and cleanse the heart, but I think it was not the way. The only way is this way. It seems to be less difficult because we are lead well so easily. I want to go to the end. I want to go back to America and do it again.
