Santa Clara Meditation Health – The Reason Why I Wasn’t Happy Even Though I Had Everything I Wanted
Y H Lee
I started meditation, because I was suffering mentally and emotionally due to my extreme greed for fame and recognition at work. I was so competitive, and because of my extreme competitiveness and greed, not only did my mental health suffer, but my physical health was at risk, as well. I was always nervous and anxious about everything, so I developed a case of insomnia, and because I was so fatigued, my eating patterns became incredibly unhealthy, as well. This caused my metabolism to slow down and I could not digest any food I ate. My mental and physical state was so bad that everyday activities became almost impossible for me to accomplish and I wanted to quit my job, and that is when I was introduced to this meditation.
In just two weeks after starting this meditation, I was finally able to sleep again and digest what I ate. And more than anything, my feelings were consoled by the kind people at the meditation centers. I was healed so much that I even decided to keep going to the workplace that I had despised so much.
I, who had previously been so dissatisfied with my life even though I had everything, became happier, and I finally realized that everything that was bothering me was just human mind and fake. However, as my body started to heal, I became a little distant from the meditation again, and for a while, I did not attend the center nor meditate alone. But just as I was contemplating quitting the meditation, my child, who was in college at the time, went to the university meditation camp. I saw him change so much for the better, and his change inspired me to start meditating diligently again to become happier.
