Santa Clara Meditation Happiness – Depression, Frustration, Resentment, Anger, All Disappeared
Bulyeoshi
The first time I met this meditation was in the summer of 2012. It was around this time when my husband and I were fighting so severely that I decided to file for divorce. I remember now that I turned in the divorce papers at the family court, asked my aunt to take care of my child for a bit, and then I went to the Meditation Main Center. I hated my husband so much, and was consumed with so much resentment and anger that I wanted to kill him. After finishing level 1, I advanced to level 2, and it was extremely difficult. I had been meditating for roughly three weeks, but I could not enlighten anything with my heart and I was so filled with so much anger and resentment.
But I continued on. After passing level 2, I realized that the depression, frustration, resentment, and anger that had once filled my heart had disappeared and enlightened that all is one. I cannot even describe how much I shed the tears of gratitude. Even while meditating at the local center after returning home, whenever strong emotions and thoughts would overwhelm me, I was able to go to the Meditation Main Center to take part in the longer, all-day meditation sessions.
My family has become happier than ever before, as my anxiety and nervousness have disappeared and my family has become peaceful and stable. Sometimes, I reflect on myself that I’m not doing this meditation sincerely with the delight with this feeling of happiness. I think that we really need to discard from the heart in order to become truly happy.
